Psalm 139:6 (VOICE) It is the most amazing feeling to know how deeply You know me, inside and out; the realization of it is so great that I cannot comprehend it.
{Speaking to God in my heart} Father, You amaze me. The level of detail You’re mindful of in my heart and life is truly mind boggling. You understand my heart motivations even in the moments I can’t (or won’t) see them. And like the loving Father You are, You find a way to bring the things to light that I need to know. And You do it without shaming me. You do it without making me feel like I’m inherently flawed. In fact, just the opposite! As I see myself in the reflection of Your eyes – the way You treat me and the way You love me – I see someone worth being kind to. I see someone worth being patient with. I see someone who is not disposable, but who is worth tending to and healing. You don’t just get rid of me when I’m feeling broken or struggling to understand something – even when it’s the bajillionth time I’m making the same mistake, you correct me just as lovingly as if it were the first. When I see myself through Your eyes, I see someone cherished and prized. And when You treat me as You do, I feel encouraged to do the same. Thank you for the gift of seeing myself as You see me. May I never lose sight of that vision, but if I do – thank you in advance for patiently helping me find it again.
Psalm 139:1-7, 13-18 (VOICE) O Eternal One, You have explored my heart and know exactly who I am; You even know the small details like when I take a seat and when I stand up again. Even when I am far away, You know what I’m thinking. You observe my wanderings and my sleeping, my waking and my dreaming, and You know everything I do in more detail than even I know. You know what I’m going to say long before I say it. It is true, Eternal One, that You know everything and everyone. You have surrounded me on every side, behind me and before me, and You have placed Your hand gently on my shoulder. It is the most amazing feeling to know how deeply You know me, inside and out; the realization of it is so great that I cannot comprehend it. Can I go anywhere apart from Your Spirit? Is there anywhere I can go to escape Your watchful presence? For You shaped me, inside and out. You knitted me together in my mother’s womb long before I took my first breath. I will offer You my grateful heart, for I am Your unique creation, filled with wonder and awe. You have approached even the smallest details with excellence; Your works are wonderful; I carry this knowledge deep within my soul. You see all things; nothing about me was hidden from You As I took shape in secret, carefully crafted in the heart of the earth before I was born from its womb. You see all things; You saw me growing, changing in my mother’s womb; Every detail of my life was already written in Your book; You established the length of my life before I ever tasted the sweetness of it. Your thoughts and plans are treasures to me, O God! I cherish each and every one of them! How grand in scope! How many in number! If I could count each one of them, they would be more than all the grains of sand on earth. Their number is inconceivable! Even when I wake up, I am still near to You.