Psalms 103:12 (AMP) As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us.
Beloved, when you repent, I forgive. It is as simple and beautiful as that. I understand the holy sorrow you feel at having fallen short of the mark, but resist the urge to try to remind Me of your transgressions over and over again. Truly, once I have forgiven you, it is not a part of how I see you.
If a three year old child spills their milk, does the parent expect them to still be apologizing at age 10? At 20? Of course not. The parent has moved on, and no longer holds that to the child’s account. In the same way, when you repent, I move on with you. There is no benefit in bringing it up repeatedly (in fact there is much harm) even if your purpose in doing so is to apologize. So beloved, no longer think of the former things, but rather keep your eyes ahead and embrace the beauty that is to come.